Easter in the bunker

Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb. He saw the linen wrappings lying there, and the cloth that had been on Jesus’ head, not lying with the linen wrappings but rolled up in a place by itself. (John 20:6-7)

I would have picked up the grave cloths, held them in my hands, savored their texture, stroked my cheek with the fabric and breathed in the fragrance of the soul they’d held. Anything … just to feel his presence.

I can imagine it, but imagination quickly transports me 33 years into the past and a place thousands of miles away, a concrete bunker on the edge of a civil war.

In the back, squatting on the dirt floor, a mother fingered the dirty rags in which she’d wrapped her child, a little girl. The child was starving, dying, beyond help even if medical help had been near, which it wasn’t.

I think of her every year as imagine how tenderly Jesus’ friends wrapped him in death. I watch their hands and soon see this mother tugging at the filthy bands of cloth around her child, covering her, keeping watch, a death watch, which would end with the child laid beneath soil of a troubled land where this scene was playing out hundreds of times every day.

I know. The image is too sad for today, or so I was informed in no uncertain terms the one time I told the story on an Easter morning.

But each year, the hands of Jesus’ friends and the hands of this mother blend and merge in the sacred, unpredictable ways of memory where meaning is made and the Spirit does her best work.

Only now, this year, I imagine holding Jesus’ grave cloths to my cheek and am transported across 33 years to the back corner of that bunker, where I pick up the filthy strips of once-white cotton laying in the dirt, abandoned, cast off.

And at this, I know that for which I hope: to feel his risen presence, the presence I felt that decades old day when I prayed for that child through tears and marked her with the sign of the cross, hoping with all my might that the Resurrection is real for the whole suffering world … and especially for that little girl … and the mother who wrapped her in bands of love … the two of us, held in one hope.

No one needed to tell me ‘Christ is risen’ that day. He was right there.

David L. Miller