Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Today’s text

Matthew 5:6

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for uprightness: they shall have their fill.

Reflection

I have stopped running this morning, Jesus. I have not been running from you. Just running. Just busy. My mind and hands have been full of work that is done for you, planning and organizing, teaching and sharing, counseling and supporting.

Most of it makes me smile; you, too, I hope. But this morning I have no place to which I need run, and tears are quickly in my eyes.

My soul finds an open space to breathe. My heart opens, and a hunger fills the inmost parts of my body. But even while feeling this, my hunger is satisfied, at least in part, by the presence of love and longing.

It’s a strange awareness. I have known it many times before but am never quite able to understand it. At the same moment, I feel both hunger and satisfaction, both wanting and fullness, desire and the presence of what is desired.

I hunger, yet am filled. I am filled, but I want more.

Is this what it is to know you, Loving Mystery? To hunger for you who are always more than I can hold or know, even while holding within the mystery of a love that reaches out from the bottom of my soul to the uttermost regions of the reality that I know I can never possess?

Words break down here. At least mine do. I am pleased I can describe even this much, this little.

Let my amazement and confusion be my morning praise of you who dwell within and ever beyond me.

For you are the longing and the fullness. You are both. And this life of mine is caught up in you, so that hunger and fullness, longing and love will mark my days. And on my very best days I will know it and thank you for it.

Thank you for this day, this open space in which you can reveal to me the mystery of my life and of your love. I know I will never be satisfied, but fill me as best I can be filled with the wonder of your life.

Pr. David L. Miller