A series of biblical readings and prayers from David L. Miller, senior pastor of St. Timothy Lutheran Church, Naperville, IL. David is the former editor of The Lutheran magazine and Director of Spiritual Formation at the Lutheran School of Theology at Chicago.
Wednesday, December 09, 2015
Wednesday, December 9, 2015
Every valley shall be lifted up,
and every mountain and hill be made low;
the uneven ground shall become level,
and the rough places a plain.
The holy way
There is a
way home into the heart of God. I walked it last Monday night.
with anxiety about the uncontrollable future, I went to a favorite place to
pray. I prayed aloud, my voice echoing against the brick walls of the tiny
chapel, and I was utterly honest, holding nothing back.
I named my faults and
uncertainties, my failures and fears, self-doubt and inner accusations. I
surrendered the absurd delusion that I am or should be more or better or
different from the needy, fallible human hearts I meet each day.
I was humbled,
knowing I but one more human soul who can no more control the future that he
can erase the past.
I made no
promises to God about doing better, for I cannot assure myself or anyone else
that my efforts to live and love and serve will by any better or worse than
they have been for years.
of pride fell to the chapel floor. And my valley of sadness and shame was
revealed as a product of the arrogance that I should be something more than
surrendered to my life and limitations as they are, releasing the mind’s
ceaseless chatter about what could or should or might be, accepting life’s
circumstances and situations as the reality I must live.
surrender brought peace. It stirred hope. It calmed the anxiety. It released
everything to the Holy One from came a calm I could not give myself.
seems, is born as you abandon yourself to your human limitations and situation,
and open yourself to what God may bring.
This is the holy way, the way the
heart opens to God and begins to feel the stirring of life that is Life and
Love that never dies.